soon enough.

there's always too much to do. too many places to be.

i want too much, and at times my obssessing gets the best of me and

i have to remember to breathe.

i need a girls night in. i need a lyrical afternoon.

i need a morning of coffee and no responsibilities.

i want a rap stars bank account. why not?

still not enough.

so i guess despite the stuff i said, i can't stop myself from wanting to make a SB page. my love for making a canvas fades during times when i figure i'll never make a whole lot of $ on them. i have a couple for sale at the shop, but i can't really get pasted the: what am I making this for? funk, and so i pull out a recent pic and get happy. speaking of which, it is DEF time to get some new happiness developed. work has been CRAZY, and being pregnant makes me want to do nothing but crash my the time i get home. but, i have been making SOME, as seen above.

4th favorites:

i have a thing for the way fireworks transfer through a camera. when you move the camera just right, it creates a really cool affect. some might say they do not capture the moment, i say perfection.

i love this guy.

From January to June.

PREGNANT!!

shoot, i'm halfway through already.

it caught me by total surprise, but after some soul searching

and amazing good wishes from family & friends,

i couldn't be happier about it.

fell back in love with my city.

glass beach took a total makeover, and although it

is by far and away not the cool hippie hangout it used to be,

is still very beautiful.

my newest obsession has been driftwood.
lucky for me our levee has plenty of it.

this winter was cold. i got into one of my funks

sometime mid-january and didn't make anything or

take any pictures for weeks. now that life is crazy again, i guess it has helped me find my old groove back. i've been making pages and canvases like crazy, and spending less time worrying about cleaning my house. my heart still feels heavy, and there are some things I need to work out, but I feel the best way to do that is through my art, which has benefited. Sometimes I have to remember to focus on myself, or else my world turns grey from lack of my own sun. I don't have my camera, which has about 200+ pictures on it from good times and paint times, it got left behind in Florida with the BFF, and will hopefully be making it's way back to me via my girlfriend.

(I can't live without for long.)

a lot waits to be painted.

so far this year's got me feeling like this:

not too bad. I LOVE what I do and I still hate my job every now and then. but I get to express other people's sympathies and happiness and regret. it's a very cool thing. a lot of emotion goes into the whole florist thing over time. people are asking me to send a thought with something I make out of flowers, and I take the whole thing very seriously. Wink.

I haven't done any actual pages in a while. by a "while" I'm guessing about 3 weeks or so. I think there won't be that many made this year. I have so many other projects

whirrling around in my head. it's' time to shine light on that area of my brain. i have been saving stuff to glue onto other stuff for years. 12x12 stuff:

stuck in a font.

*waiting on a new year to take the cake.

if people know me from jack

the best bet's that i'm late.

prepared for rain standing in the sun

so tightly wrapped, still coming undone

in moments when i felt that i

could not go on and thought to lie

when music just refused to play

and i couldn't dance, just stood and swayed

i caught myself, to my surprise

i landed hard, but tried to fly.

sept.

oct.

nov.

dec.

another year is packed and ready to take this one's place.

january.


february.

march.
april.

may.

june.
july.
august.

to be cont.

still obsessed over summer.

summer.

i wait for it to come each year with a bit of WILD abandonment. and at the end it's kind of like I just got off a ride at the state fair. slightly dizzy but with a weird obsession to do it all over again; right away. a while back i vowed to JOURNAL more, and in looking at all the pages I photographed today I seemed to have a least gotten better. i also decided to get a new composition notebook, it was TIME.

getting dark + amazing palm tree = my heart beating faster remembering being there.

this is what I get when I say: CHEEEEESE!! these boys were awesome the day this pic was taken. and also hilarious in their little kid ways.:

I admit I got a little carried away. but the more ribbon and fiber I added the more I liked it. kind of like cowbells, you always need more ribbon.:

with what, I wonder?

Latest Scrapjack:

the latest scrapjacked./

I haven't seen a lot of vanessa's/work ...

but I am always down for some spray ink action:

Welcome Baby Rabb.

Baby Warren Rabb Holt

Sept. 23rd, 2009

don't know the other details,

but I know he is perfect.

Just look at him:

This made my day recently.

I have been known to hold up a redlight

or make a U-Turn for an

awesome bird on a wire shot.

This one happened to be

at the end of my driveway.: