i love Lady Gaga.

• i recently caught a good bit of Lady Gaga's HBO special cencert addition and was not impressed. Very glad I never spent that 100+$$ to see it. i would like to dress up the getting ready would be a blast. so would hearing my jams. if someone bought my ticket, i'd be a blast to go with.
• i need sand in  my car in the form of the weekend i'm getting at the beach next weekend.. getting on my nerves and making me vaccum which i need to do so badly. maybe i'll just wait till summer's over, what's nearly a year without a good vaccuming? a record, that's what.

• my national flag would be made entirely of pretty ribbons. it would be amazing to look at really, on a breezy sunny day. (that's all we have there.)

21 things.

a long time ago, there was a facebook thread that listed 21 things about yourself that people didn't/probably didn't already know, and i have carried them around with me for months, so i will post them here. happy sunday!

1. i have a real hard time accepting help from people, even when i really need it.

2. when my parents divorced i was 17, i became VERY close to both my parents and they confided in me through the entire process and i am very grateful for that. the best part: they both found true love in new people.

3. i'm scared i'll never live up to the vision i have of myself in my head.

4. i have a shopping problem, but i hardly ever buy anything unless it's really cheap.

5. i am really bad at remembering people's birthdays and names. i admit i gave up a long time ago.

6. i'd rather read a gossip magazine over a magazine & am aware this makes me very American, and i am okay with that.

7. i hardly ever fill up my gas tank. i never feel like waiting, and i hate spending the $$.

8. i still sleep with a blanket i have had since i was about 2. i don't have any shame in it anymore, and now my baby loves it too. (it smells like years and years of softness and momma)

9. the only thing that's ever kept me from sleep is lying awake at night hoping there is nothing wrong with the baby. (while i was still pregnant)

10. i think i know EVERYTHING. (sorry)

11. i hate hearing the toilet flush in the middle of the night.

12. when i daydream, i usually think of the worst case scenario so that maybe i'll have a better idea of how to get out of a situation if it ever occurs.

13. i suck at accepting gifts and compliments.

14. i always want the bad news first.

15. i almost never say no to: dessert, pizza, & a good time.

16. "they" were right, i never knew worry and love until Ezra.

17. i shamelessly admit that after years of neglect i am addicted to a couple TV shows.

currently addicted to more shows than i have time to watch.

18. when driving in my car, i study plants and trees and say and study the names and when they bloom and when they die and when they wilt etc. in my head to make myself sharp in what i do for a living, as well as make up for my lack of school.

19. i have very few regrets, none of them major.

20. most of the nail polish i have bought in the last year has been blue. it is not my favorite color.

21. i love birds. bird houses, birds on a wire, bird magnets, bird jewelry, finding bird feathers, bird noises. but i can''t stand birds as pets, i think all birdcages should be empty. 

no cure for tired these days.

it all goes by so quickly. time, i mean...the week of the wedding i am doing by myself is FINALLY here, and honestly i can't wait for it to be over. not that i don't like doing wedding flowers, but it's the last one i won't require payment from. it's just too much work/stress/time to do for free, even if it IS for someone i know and love.

i need/require/must make some coffee.

i need to get a monthly kit.

i can't even remember the last time i was in hobby lobby.

much less ordered goodies online, since BR and surrounding

areas are a total FAIL in the cool art store dept.

meanwhile, another CHA has come and gone.

::puts that on her toDO list::

meanwhile my plan is to DEPLETE my

entire stash.ALL of it.

well, most of it.

so, here goes something:

you can't argue with time.

i need a lot of things. a new computer, for starts. a backup drive to super save all my loving pictures. a vacation. to finish a really good book, make things more, take more pics of ez. reoraganize everything in my life. but most of all, i need to take a long breath and be more grateful for the amazing RIGHT NOW i am in. busy or not every part of it is amazing. my changed up a little reminder for 2011? ...

exhaustion is not a bad thing.

    the long bridge:

perfect night:

ez's first streetcar ride:

valentine's day moments that made me stop:

Dare #170

Where I STAND.

the pic is a little blurry due to the whole can't use a flash inside thing. but it's nighttime out, and sometimes you just have to take what you can get.

it's been too long.

but I had a beautiful baby boy, and that's a good enough excuse for me. 6 weeks with no work seems like a dream.

wedding work rules.

it's a lot more fun than daily work.

knowing that you are making a bride's magical day

perfect, there's nothing like it.

i only wish that i never

had to be in a hurry. (i.e. when there

are muliple weddings in one weekend, or

several people pass away locally and the

shop turns crazy.)

i really liked the colors this girl

picked though. mixes of cream, whites, and greens.

bridesmaids:

bride's BQ:

(don't freak, it's set up off the

ground on a peice of styrofoam you can't

see with the naked eye..)

and this was for pure fun. as with wedding work,

having a lot of money to play with

and free to do what you want creatively.

(this peice was 125$)

as of late, the end of the day is really putting a hurting me.

at 7 months, my feet HATE a 9hr work day.

i'm trying to remind myself that i can

get other people to help me, but when I want something done,

I want it done RIGHT AWAY.

it amazes me how slow some

people can be on a time clock. this economy sucks,

other people want YOUR job, WORK for your paycheck.

(and be happy you have a job.)

ohh, Andy. .

(from Elise's blog.)

soon enough.

there's always too much to do. too many places to be.

i want too much, and at times my obssessing gets the best of me and

i have to remember to breathe.

i need a girls night in. i need a lyrical afternoon.

i need a morning of coffee and no responsibilities.

i want a rap stars bank account. why not?

still not enough.

so i guess despite the stuff i said, i can't stop myself from wanting to make a SB page. my love for making a canvas fades during times when i figure i'll never make a whole lot of $ on them. i have a couple for sale at the shop, but i can't really get pasted the: what am I making this for? funk, and so i pull out a recent pic and get happy. speaking of which, it is DEF time to get some new happiness developed. work has been CRAZY, and being pregnant makes me want to do nothing but crash my the time i get home. but, i have been making SOME, as seen above.

4th favorites:

i have a thing for the way fireworks transfer through a camera. when you move the camera just right, it creates a really cool affect. some might say they do not capture the moment, i say perfection.

i love this guy.

From January to June.

PREGNANT!!

shoot, i'm halfway through already.

it caught me by total surprise, but after some soul searching

and amazing good wishes from family & friends,

i couldn't be happier about it.

fell back in love with my city.

glass beach took a total makeover, and although it

is by far and away not the cool hippie hangout it used to be,

is still very beautiful.

my newest obsession has been driftwood.
lucky for me our levee has plenty of it.

this winter was cold. i got into one of my funks

sometime mid-january and didn't make anything or

take any pictures for weeks. now that life is crazy again, i guess it has helped me find my old groove back. i've been making pages and canvases like crazy, and spending less time worrying about cleaning my house. my heart still feels heavy, and there are some things I need to work out, but I feel the best way to do that is through my art, which has benefited. Sometimes I have to remember to focus on myself, or else my world turns grey from lack of my own sun. I don't have my camera, which has about 200+ pictures on it from good times and paint times, it got left behind in Florida with the BFF, and will hopefully be making it's way back to me via my girlfriend.

(I can't live without for long.)